来不及。。。

原来放开是需要很大的勇气，我真的败给了勇气~我还是惦记着她，无时无刻的想念着她~我真的很爱她~我为你作出、付出难道不值得换来一次的机会吗？？难道我做错的是那么大罪吗？我不懂。。。我只知道，此时此刻的我都无私的挂念着你，你知道吗？

今天，突然听到了一首歌， 罗忆诗的“来不及”， 我本来以为我已慢慢习惯一个人的时候，一个人的寂寞，一个人的生活，但结果告诉我，我还是不能。。。歌词里的每一句就是我想对你说的一言一语~

习惯一个人静静想你

想你现在在哪里

想你会为谁担心

想你是否已忘记

忘记那段爱情

忘记那颗泪滴

忘记了所有不该忘的回忆

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑着 心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

忘记那段爱情忘记那颗泪滴

忘记了所有不该忘的回忆

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑着 心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑 着心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

我还是来不及了

对你的冷静期，难道就是结束一段感情的意思吗？难道我们这次的挫折就没有挽回的余地？？我不知道我应该怎样做，我很乱。。。我的心也无可得痛，这痛是告诉我。。原来我是真的很爱你~我到现在还是不能忘记你，放弃你。。。。

表面显得若无其事的我，但到了夜深寂静的时候，我的眼泪就不听话的流了出来。。。。我压抑着自己的情绪，因为我知道，我不要让大家看到我的伤心。。。我希望一切可以从来~

我期待、我盼望。。。。

liFE gOeS on~

well, it has come to the end of my first week since class commences~ been busy rushing for my FYP and it is killing me as i need to do a lot of research, read on journals and stay in front of PC for hours to hours, days to days~ well, i hope that my supervisor will by with my dissertation title...

Time is flashing and now, it is nearly to the end of January~ and my works are getting loaded!! LOL~ well, this is my final semester, i hope i can do well in my degree study~ i hope i could make it to graduate on time which is in May 2011~!!! Then i m free to explore the world~ haha~

Well, I hope there will nothing happen in this semester... I m trying hard to maintain with faith as I know, we are busy for our study~ For me, it is a challenge but i will take it because i need to handle it no matter how~!!

Alright, I jz wish everything will be running smooth and I hope we could make it not for long last but long term~ Though we cant be together for a frequent of time, but gentle reminders for you to take note... when you feel cold, plz put on blanket~ drink more water as u easy to get sick~ rest awhile when u r tired~ relax yourself when u feel stressed~ share with me when there is tear and laugh from you~

Well, let's work hard together and to achieve our life goal~!!!!

Love~

Back to my life...

First of all, thanks to my all friends for celebrating birthday with me in advance...proudly intro them, they are Ms Sam Lee Lay Chen, Mr Jacky Lee Han Jie, Ms Yee Yoke Mei and Mr Kenneth Lee Hui Keat...yeah!!! thanks and love u all...Samantha Sau, Elaine Tan, Angeline, hongrui, Sue Yan, Louis Ng, and my fellow PR5 classmates, thanks for your wishes... Louis Ng, dun forget u still owing me a meal..hahahahahah!!

Haha...am I ok with that? yeah,,,guess so...back to my normal life...hanging out with frens, singing K with frens, watching movie with frens, drinking with frens..a lot of fun....

Firstly, would like to thanks Stanley, a funny guy who can entertain me and accompany me to drink at pub then to clubbing...yeah, a fun night i had over there...i really enjoyed!!

Next day, Ken and Zhi were accompanying me to watch movie then went to sing K...yeah!! wat's a busy day i had yesterday,,,,today, back to working life, a life that is going to end soon on this saturday...yeah!!!my internship life..then back to my study life....

I was so stupid, without me, u will be.......hahaha..now i knew it, u have found someone there...ya,i shud not to worry so much ady...anyways, call me or sms me if u need me or would to share ur stuffs with me....i m willing for that...

2night, gonna be my birthday night...guess who wil be celebrating with me?? yeah, Kenny wee,
thanks for accompanying me...whenever i am sad and happy..thanks to u so muc, my kai gor!!!

waiting for the days to leave the place, KL...a place that does not belong to me..i dun wanna stay..i dun wanna remember/retrospect any of memories in the town again,..i was fooled...tot the thing u devoted will be rewarded...haha..no...eventually, sad or bad memories will get....

I sincerely wish and bless u....yeah, i am unhappy to that..but wat to do? someone is really can give u love and care, i shud be happy with that...coz i m no longer the one to give u love and care, but tears will do....

Bye Bye and take care.....guess we will dont have chance to meet again....do take care of urself...my heart gonna die for the relationship soon...i will unleash all the thing that is no longer belongs to me...

speechless day...!

wat i nid to say? wat shud i say? wat i can react?? We still the same? are we? any miracles??

Yesterday night was getting sick and whole body was like freezing....sore throat this morning, feel like dun wanna talk so muc...haiz...

Now, I really realize that family is the one who cares for us, love us....when the time i sick, i nid someone by my side..but my mind was stuck there...who?? who?? will be the one by my side?? from that, i tot of my mum...my mum is the one who oweys by my side and take care of me....i love u mum....

I duno wat can i do for u....u seems duno wat is the problem actually that seperates me n u...i am confused...u even never give me assurance...i wan u to assure to me...haiz......nvm la...it seems u ady get someone u love...try to be happy there...

take care

souls disperse, flesh perishes....

The real thing has finally come to me~~2nd time we cant make it thru, and it is actually tough for me to make the decision... T.T
Within the 2 weeks, actually I was stressed. I tot a lot of nonsense, rubbish..y y y??? I keep asking myself y my mind will be that busy thinking of rubbish, SHIT ?? Shudn't I send out the message? Frankly speaking, I was regret..but I have no right to change the thing since it is a fact!!!!! I have to be more braver and face it...
Forget u is impossible for me but the feel to u, will do....U r my good buddy that I hope we can hang out and watch movie in future..promise to me that dun do anytin that betray ur religion, trust to ur god n he is the one who can lead u out frm darkness...

I am not good to u but i do hope that u could find someone which is not that troublesome as me...bless u~~ and remember wat u have promised and make it...I will be more happy if u get bac with the one u really love with...

Bless u..oweys the one who care u here...

SuPPorts

Recently is busy with one of my company projects, which all about motor sports...really challenging me and i m willing to take the challenge as i noe it brings me to the nex level of knowledge...

I am a person who kinda selfish in a relationship where i believe everyone is so....i dun like to share with people...i will easily get offended...seriously, it will make me gone insane...

I hope Promise is the thing that can make me relief....promise is not about shit, it is bot the trustfulness between each other...i jz promise wont come to me as worse again which i ady had it before...thanks...

enjoy the life.....

Recently really stressed up by assignments la, studies la and so so so so on....really dun wan to stay in the room, feeling like lonely n thinking unhappy things onli will do...so, asking Sam, Jacky and Yoke Mei to yum cha to chat n laugh, 4get bot the unhappy things. Today is my old fren, Xin Yi's birthday. She asks me, Jacky n Sam to her party 2nite. But in the noon time, she, me, her two frens who r Pei Yi and Hui Hui, Loong and her bf, Bo Quan. We all 6 persons went to sing K..it was fun as we sang a lot of songs...hehe...long time din sing k le, feel like great. Singing is one of the way for me to lessen my stress. We really enjoyed as her bf was entertaining us..haha..damn funny. Here bless Xin Yi and Bo Quan's relationship everlasting...

Xin Yi's bf n me, my fren too...


Chet, Pei Yi, Xin Yin n Hu Hui




3 sisters...haha

WAITING FOR BBQ N FUN FAIR LATER...enjoy enjoy and enjoy the life....hehe