礼物

07/03/2011 的这一天，上天的安排，让我在人生中重生~

在那天，我的盼望及期待，终于。。。我等到了~

虽然说曾经的伤口还在隐隐作痛，但，我知道，这将会是我的良药。解药~

我每天都告诉我，你绝对是生存于现实中，你是清醒的~一切都是如你所愿了。。。。

08/03/2011的这一天，我终于看到了这大礼物~虽然摸不到，但我看到了，它就是我的一切了~

我每天都向上天道谢，送上这一份那么棒的礼物~

每当看见你，那喜悦感，兴奋感都踊跃出来~

再多的疲惫，再多的顾虑，再多的辛苦，都一一告诉我，我的等待是值得的~

直到。。。。。。

19/03/2011的这一天，终于，我有机会触摸了我人生中的礼物！一脸面带笑容，一脸迷蒙蒙的眼睛，一脸活泼的气息，我深深被你吸住了~

你的一举一动、一脚一步，仿佛告诉我你不会离开我，时时刻刻的贴着我的步伐，一步一步地向前走。。。直到永远~

第一次的感触，深深打动我心里~看见你那幸福满满的脸蛋，顿时让我落下了感动之泪。。。我。。我。。。的等待终于让我看到了，我。。。我。。。的盼望不再是一个未知数~

抱着你的感觉，亲吻你的感觉，一切都记牢在我心中，牢牢地记住了~

跟你一起，我想因该值得庆幸~这是上天给我最好的礼物~

虽然，过去的伤痛就似一把刀涌进我心里，告诉我现时的残酷；但，你就有如在世活陀，把刀拔出，用你的关怀及爱护，细心的、慢慢的把我伤口治好~

记得我看着你的背影偷偷说感激，记得你总是为了小小事情而不停唠叨。。。。这。。这。。都告诉我你对我的关怀、照顾~

我只想告诉你，若有天你开始模糊了记忆，请别担心，我会在你身旁，紧握你双手，按着电脑，看着我们的照片，一张一张的述说我们的过去，我们的故事~

这将会是我们的礼物~

你准备好了吗？

前方的路途再多困难，再多的曲折，

我们都要牵着对方的手，互相扶持，互相爱护，一起走下去

tHe sPARkles

Ever since you walked into my life, i have been smiling. There hasn't been a day when i have gone to sleep with a frown on my face, and it's all because of you. I appreciate and treasure you for giving me a great unforgettable day and i enjoyed so much. I m glad you came into my life and I have always wanted the love of my life to be understanding, loving, caring, faithful and most of all someone who would accept for who I am. Now,i have found the person I was looking for. Your smile, your action, your everything has melted my heart...my heart told me that you are the one whom I earnestly long for....

Listen to your singing, it touched deep into my heart...my tears dropped because I know those tears were about my happy and happiness that we have been through, how hard we strive for our relationship....as you said, the willpower will never fail both of us and it keeps telling us, there is our future in the frontage...You became my reason, my existence, my dreams and my future just by being yourself and I thank you all with my heart...

I try to put this feeling into words, but fail miserably. I have no other words to describe the way you make me feel but "I more than love you" are the words that to best describe my love, my perseverance to you. As days continue to pass, my love for you continues to mature, growing beyond the realm of my heart. Remember, though we are apart but love has connected us and making us more closer to each other. Slow down the pace, so that, I can trace it and follow you forever~~~~

~Follow the trace and you will find me~

iT's jUst yOu

A buggy life that I have been through for the week, bustling about my heavy projects and assignments. Finally, I can officially announce that I let go everything that happened in the past because I know what should/should not I to treasure or appreciate when the thing is no longer belongs to me. I will not trace back whatever the hurts and tears that I had been through, because I know, I have found you~!!

Cupid has made a such great arrangement for both of us. Initially, we were just having a nodding acquaintance, chitchatting around and sharing our stories to each other. As time goes on, we found out there are some of the similarities between both of us, mutual understanding and consideration, caring and loving, and that, it makes us together. Whenever the time i feel stressed or just in a bad skin, you are the one who keep me up, motivate me and encourage me not to let off.

Every time when the moment i open up my eyes, i expect to see your face, but see nothing except an empty face. I know that there is nothing in this world that can compare to you and it makes me to feel like I am nothing without someone like you. Every time i close my eyes, I see your funny face and the way you laugh. All these pictures make me keen on seeing you and hugging you all the time.

I remember your smile, I remember the sweet words from you, as it flows through me. I remember my heart keeps pounding when we see each other, I remember every single little action from you done to me...I remember everything and it keeps flashing over and over, picture by picture appearing on my mind. I just could not let my mind sit back as those picture will appear momently on my mind.

I love you more than words can say. From the beginning until now, you have never failed in performing your "duty" and I feel secured to be with you. My heart will always belong to you. Even though, there might be lights and storms that we need to pass through all the time, but perseverance has never failed a thing that makes us to stick it out all the time for our precious love~

~The drawing is a bit "cacat", but it is from the bottom of my heart~

Muaks~!!

p/s: someone has been waiting for so long for my updates and now, here you go~ XD

thINgs leFT unSaiD...

Time is moving fast and now it is in the beginning of March~well, this will be a busy month to me as load of assignments and FYP need to be rushed like hell~ woot~!!!

Well, I could not sleep for the night and stayed up late by doing my FYP. Nothing much progress as I was dreaming of you~ I keep my mind thinking of you, your shadow would not be shaded off... I find myself to be working hard as to retrieve what shud I belong but u seem like do not want to talk or even think about it~ i feel so helpless...

I went out to have my very first time breakfast at 4am~ cool man, this was really great coz it's my first time to be having breakfast in such an early morning and enjoyed it very much with 2 friends (Qzen and Faruq)~ well, all we did were chit-chatting and gossiping ppl around us~ it was so interesting and enjoying~ shud we hang out again nex time~ LOL

Reached home at about 6am smtin and watching my hosting event. It really made my day as i was non-stop laughing when watching over and over again~ it was so cool and i shud feel glad on that coz we (with my partner, Lee Lay Chen) did a huge success in the event!!

A friend of mine was telling me that "if I'm becoming a part of your stress and pressure, then u better let it go as i never wanna see u suffer" and, actually, i do agree with that statement. If you love your lover, u shud not be so self-centered as to regulate him or predominate him from doing your favor. Perhaps, i shud let you go and you would feel better after and that...

My life is starting to become so different even if my days seem the same. And I must confess that it's you who has changed my outlook. You have opened my eyes to some amazing new possibilities. I will forever be filled with a new sense of wonder and joy because you have shared yourself with me. All the things that i told you about how i felt and how you make me feel were true. Nothing else mattered to me except hearing the laughter in your voice when you were happy. You made my days easy to get through and my night at peace, looking forward to another day even though distance separates us just being was enough.

Distant love will oweys be the factor that triggers one's relationship to be insecure. Well, trust and belief to one and another will be the main elements as to ensure the relationship is long last~ I shud keep everything back into my mind and back to what my life was as previous time~ I shud do well in my study and u too, bless u everything and all the best~!!!

tHru sToRMs and bACk

The first day we allowed our true feeling to come out about each other, we fell asleep in each other's arm~ I never wanted it to be morning, where we'ld go our separate way. Seriously, i enjoyed the moment very much~ I duno how to describe my feeling but all I know i dun wan them go away....

We both have been hurt in the past but am I ain't be granted a chance as i believe we we could be the one who are faithful to each other..Things are so good even though we are both shy about things, you make me feel so good and now i wear my smile on the inside and outside, because i know u're mine~

Well, i know that when something has happened, perhaps it will have no way back~ but I believe in my heart and soul that we were meant to be with one another. I think about you everyday and night. The love that i hold for you in my soul is greater than an ocean or the sky above.

All i want in my life is you and your love. We have been thru storms and back into the light over and over again, and right now we are back in the storm. Right now, all i want you to know is my love for you will never die and Let's step back into the light....

Please forgive me for all the hurt that i have caused you. I love you and i mean for the words~ Hopefully, when the day comes, i will still have you by my side and you will be the last angel face that i see.

I will be able to hold you in my arms one last time and tell you how much i love you and how much you really mean to me

I love you~

执着。放开

最近在我人生当中，二月份可说是我人生中的高低潮时刻了~很多事情我们都要亲身面对，亲身体验之后才能从当中有所领悟、感受~

曾经有问过我自己，“当一切不再是你的一切时，你会执着吗” 当时的我，是会的~因为我觉得我在人生中，人海茫茫，我们能相遇，从朋友到情人；从情人到爱人；从爱人到夫妇等等的每一个阶段都是因为“缘”。。好不容易在这世界上，几亿万人口能与你相遇，那可是多么可贵啊！所以，我告诉自己，无论怎样，我都要坚持~

就当一段感情进入的冷静期时，难道这就是分手的时候吗？我们一起辛辛苦苦建立起的感情就这样断掉吗？我不明白。。。冷静期难道不是让大家去冷静思考，然后再给对方机会从心来过吗？为什么就会这么轻易放开？？

一开始，我以为我放下了。。。但当我回味一切我们走过的点滴时，你总是出现在我脑海里~我们一起去槟城游玩的那段日子，让我觉得是人生中最开心的~分开的那一天也是我人生中最难过，泪流满面地一刻了~我是多么不舍得你~很多时候，很想通电给你，但你又不接~很多事情我知道，你忍住眼泪、伤悲、伪装的完美，却还是忍不住离开我；但，最后你还是优雅的离开我了~

可能放开对你来说是一种解脱，我也知道你会很忙，可能不想让感情事纠缠着你~我祝福你。。愿你快乐每一天~时间会证明一切。。。记得我爱你。。。

yummy yummy~

well, within the month, it has been 2nd time for me to have my beloved seafood delicacies~ i enjoyed it very much~

A friend was asking me to bring him around in Kampar for seafood~ well, i decided to bring him over Tanjung Tualang which nearby Gopeng~ He food the bill and I just enjoyed the meal~ those are the food that we had ordered and we were over stuffed at the end~

Just both of us but we ate abot 3 person's meal~ LOL

These few days i was in sad mood~ as something happened in my life~ my heart is aching due to that~ but i have to over it as life still goes on~ i have many thing need to be done in the time... my study~so, i have to be tough and strong~ Went for my 2nd time Seafood with my gang~

Elaine Tan, Yoke Mei, Sam Lee, Jacky Lee (boss), Ve vian, Louis Ng and I, together 7 of us went to Tanjung Tualang again~ wuhoo!!! but the food was disappointing me as it is not nicer than the one i visited in previous time~ But, we all enjoyed it by chit-chatting around among 7 of us~! The hate thing is there was an aunty making noise like "Ceong dai hei" (singing opera).. LOL...

Elain Tan and Sam Lee (from left)

Louis Ng and Jacky, the boss (from left)

p/s: Yoke Mei, Ve Vian and I were in other's people (referring to Vevian) hp and waiting her to upload onto fb~ waiting waiting waiting~ LOL

Well, guys, thanks a lot especially Jacky coz he foot the bill and we really enjoyed it very much~ after the dinner, we were so happening and went Ipoh to sing K as to release tension~!! Enjoyed the session very much.. ~

Well, i have to be strong and happy in my life~ life still goes on~ When everytime something happens on me,for sure i will remember my mum, my family~ MUM, I LOVE YOU~!!

来不及。。。

原来放开是需要很大的勇气，我真的败给了勇气~我还是惦记着她，无时无刻的想念着她~我真的很爱她~我为你作出、付出难道不值得换来一次的机会吗？？难道我做错的是那么大罪吗？我不懂。。。我只知道，此时此刻的我都无私的挂念着你，你知道吗？

今天，突然听到了一首歌， 罗忆诗的“来不及”， 我本来以为我已慢慢习惯一个人的时候，一个人的寂寞，一个人的生活，但结果告诉我，我还是不能。。。歌词里的每一句就是我想对你说的一言一语~

习惯一个人静静想你

想你现在在哪里

想你会为谁担心

想你是否已忘记

忘记那段爱情

忘记那颗泪滴

忘记了所有不该忘的回忆

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑着 心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

忘记那段爱情忘记那颗泪滴

忘记了所有不该忘的回忆

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑着 心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑 着心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

我还是来不及了

对你的冷静期，难道就是结束一段感情的意思吗？难道我们这次的挫折就没有挽回的余地？？我不知道我应该怎样做，我很乱。。。我的心也无可得痛，这痛是告诉我。。原来我是真的很爱你~我到现在还是不能忘记你，放弃你。。。。

表面显得若无其事的我，但到了夜深寂静的时候，我的眼泪就不听话的流了出来。。。。我压抑着自己的情绪，因为我知道，我不要让大家看到我的伤心。。。我希望一切可以从来~

我期待、我盼望。。。。

~回家~

顺子-” 回 家 “

我还不明白
为什麽离开了我
没有你的电话
没有一封信
我每天晚上在这里
那里也不想去
可是我好爱你
我觉得我会离不开你
可惜我丢了你
慢慢我的眼泪留下来
回家
回家
我需要你
回家
回家
马上来我的身边
别再哭
就让他走
再多痛苦的等候
相信我也能承受
闭上眼
不再留恋
你却一遍又一遍
出现在想你的夜
别说
不会有结果
永远永远
别说分手
而你
又怎麽能够
就这样的放手
一去不再回头
BE HERE, JUST BE THERE, MY LOVE AND ONLY LOVE
回家
回家
我需要你
哦
回家
马上回家
我需要你
回家
回家
马上来我的身边
BE HERE, JUST BE THERE, MY LOVE AND ONLY LOVE
回家
回家
马上来我的身边

一切都是我一手造成的结局，这痛苦就由我来扛~从来没想过分开的结局，一切真的无法再回头啦！如果顿时神再次给我机会，我会要求要个时光机，回到当时的我，回到当时的你，我们只是普普通通的开心在一起~还有可能吗？没有了。。。我也是时候醒了~朋友都说我最近都很沉默，脸色很苍白~唉。。。。

我只要求你一定要过的比我幸福，我不会再牵涉你的生活，因为你有你的自由了~一切对你来说已成过去，但这可对我说是美好的回忆~回想在一起的时候，我们是多么开心。多么的欢乐~好怀念~虽然这可能不再发生，但这回忆很新鲜的出现在我脑海，仿佛提醒我，你会回到我身边~哈哈！！

回家这首歌唱出我的感觉，再多的对不起也只会让你反感，唯有放手，才能让你得到真正的幸福~我祝福你。。。

记得我爱你。。。。

the DAY is coming...

well, it has come to the middle of the February...a day that which is the most memorable to me...a friend of mine told me, it needs not to be a special coz everyday is also a memorable day...but as for me, this day is the day that it is my first time...my valentine's day~ LOL

well, i m so awaiting for the day to come and celeb v the loved one...it means a lot to me as i m so eager on how would it feel?? excited??happy?? LOL...those feelings emanate from the bottom of my heart!!

Well, i hope that day will be my happiest day and most memorable day...I dare not to expect what might be happening on the day, but all what i've expected is that, i will fully enjoy the day with my loved one...bur i know that, sometimes, the end is not as what i've expected....so, dont expect so much and accept what it might be going on~

I think i will get slim for the day coming as i think i will be having Quacker all the time...hahahaha~ it is a good thing that i can save up to get my loved perfume, Aqua De Gio, 100ml...i will get you in one day~!!!!!!