来不及。。。

原来放开是需要很大的勇气，我真的败给了勇气~我还是惦记着她，无时无刻的想念着她~我真的很爱她~我为你作出、付出难道不值得换来一次的机会吗？？难道我做错的是那么大罪吗？我不懂。。。我只知道，此时此刻的我都无私的挂念着你，你知道吗？

今天，突然听到了一首歌， 罗忆诗的“来不及”， 我本来以为我已慢慢习惯一个人的时候，一个人的寂寞，一个人的生活，但结果告诉我，我还是不能。。。歌词里的每一句就是我想对你说的一言一语~

习惯一个人静静想你

想你现在在哪里

想你会为谁担心

想你是否已忘记

忘记那段爱情

忘记那颗泪滴

忘记了所有不该忘的回忆

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑着 心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

忘记那段爱情忘记那颗泪滴

忘记了所有不该忘的回忆

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑着 心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

我来不及将你的手紧紧握着

对你说我只想要我们能快乐

曾以为少了你的陪伴不算什么

怎么我微笑 着心却是痛的

我来不及将记忆中的你消除了

我明白错过的从此难以复合

如果眼泪能够证明我是爱你的

那么重新选择是不是来不及了

我还是来不及了

对你的冷静期，难道就是结束一段感情的意思吗？难道我们这次的挫折就没有挽回的余地？？我不知道我应该怎样做，我很乱。。。我的心也无可得痛，这痛是告诉我。。原来我是真的很爱你~我到现在还是不能忘记你，放弃你。。。。

表面显得若无其事的我，但到了夜深寂静的时候，我的眼泪就不听话的流了出来。。。。我压抑着自己的情绪，因为我知道，我不要让大家看到我的伤心。。。我希望一切可以从来~

我期待、我盼望。。。。

~回家~

顺子-” 回 家 “

我还不明白
为什麽离开了我
没有你的电话
没有一封信
我每天晚上在这里
那里也不想去
可是我好爱你
我觉得我会离不开你
可惜我丢了你
慢慢我的眼泪留下来
回家
回家
我需要你
回家
回家
马上来我的身边
别再哭
就让他走
再多痛苦的等候
相信我也能承受
闭上眼
不再留恋
你却一遍又一遍
出现在想你的夜
别说
不会有结果
永远永远
别说分手
而你
又怎麽能够
就这样的放手
一去不再回头
BE HERE, JUST BE THERE, MY LOVE AND ONLY LOVE
回家
回家
我需要你
哦
回家
马上回家
我需要你
回家
回家
马上来我的身边
BE HERE, JUST BE THERE, MY LOVE AND ONLY LOVE
回家
回家
马上来我的身边

一切都是我一手造成的结局，这痛苦就由我来扛~从来没想过分开的结局，一切真的无法再回头啦！如果顿时神再次给我机会，我会要求要个时光机，回到当时的我，回到当时的你，我们只是普普通通的开心在一起~还有可能吗？没有了。。。我也是时候醒了~朋友都说我最近都很沉默，脸色很苍白~唉。。。。

我只要求你一定要过的比我幸福，我不会再牵涉你的生活，因为你有你的自由了~一切对你来说已成过去，但这可对我说是美好的回忆~回想在一起的时候，我们是多么开心。多么的欢乐~好怀念~虽然这可能不再发生，但这回忆很新鲜的出现在我脑海，仿佛提醒我，你会回到我身边~哈哈！！

回家这首歌唱出我的感觉，再多的对不起也只会让你反感，唯有放手，才能让你得到真正的幸福~我祝福你。。。

记得我爱你。。。。

the DAY is coming...

well, it has come to the middle of the February...a day that which is the most memorable to me...a friend of mine told me, it needs not to be a special coz everyday is also a memorable day...but as for me, this day is the day that it is my first time...my valentine's day~ LOL

well, i m so awaiting for the day to come and celeb v the loved one...it means a lot to me as i m so eager on how would it feel?? excited??happy?? LOL...those feelings emanate from the bottom of my heart!!

Well, i hope that day will be my happiest day and most memorable day...I dare not to expect what might be happening on the day, but all what i've expected is that, i will fully enjoy the day with my loved one...bur i know that, sometimes, the end is not as what i've expected....so, dont expect so much and accept what it might be going on~

I think i will get slim for the day coming as i think i will be having Quacker all the time...hahahaha~ it is a good thing that i can save up to get my loved perfume, Aqua De Gio, 100ml...i will get you in one day~!!!!!!

无奈~

昨晚，赶完show之后，就约了好友去了怡保吃宵夜，就有位朋友谈到说最近他和女友都有些争执，就是为了一些简单的事情而吵了吵。。。。

很多时候，当我们在一段爱情中就会有角色的分配。。男的永远是主动性，女的永远是被动性？是这样的吗？难道感情不是不分彼此吗？难道不是说当对方有难或不开心时，任何一方就要采取行动去安慰/安抚对方吗？感情不是双方吗？那如果是这样，倒不如单身更好？哈哈！

当一方正在忙的时候，那你有想过另一方都在等着你吗？那你又知道，每次打电话给你时，他是多么想听多几分钟你的声音吗？一句话“我很忙” 就是一个很好的借口吗？时间是自己安排的，发疯短讯，通个电话难道就那么难？那么的浪费你很忙又宝贵的时间吗？

说过的也说过了，讲过的也讲过了。。。再重复的话也只会让感情更有很大的起伏~忍耐永远是感情之间的解药~我们是人类，我们是有血有肉的人，我们需要人关怀，这无论是男是女~再刚强的男生也会遇到挫折，再刚强的男人也有软弱的一面，那当事情发生时，谁来关怀？她会通个电话给你问你，你今天怎样吗？

好啦~！其实感情是双方的，我们要知道，我们都需要大家，而不是永远只有一个采取行动，另一个只是享受，再怎么主动性也好也会有累的一天~

好啦~今天也会到家了，新年要到了，我要开开心心~一切都抛到脑后~！bless me~ ^^

liFE gOeS on~

well, it has come to the end of my first week since class commences~ been busy rushing for my FYP and it is killing me as i need to do a lot of research, read on journals and stay in front of PC for hours to hours, days to days~ well, i hope that my supervisor will by with my dissertation title...

Time is flashing and now, it is nearly to the end of January~ and my works are getting loaded!! LOL~ well, this is my final semester, i hope i can do well in my degree study~ i hope i could make it to graduate on time which is in May 2011~!!! Then i m free to explore the world~ haha~

Well, I hope there will nothing happen in this semester... I m trying hard to maintain with faith as I know, we are busy for our study~ For me, it is a challenge but i will take it because i need to handle it no matter how~!!

Alright, I jz wish everything will be running smooth and I hope we could make it not for long last but long term~ Though we cant be together for a frequent of time, but gentle reminders for you to take note... when you feel cold, plz put on blanket~ drink more water as u easy to get sick~ rest awhile when u r tired~ relax yourself when u feel stressed~ share with me when there is tear and laugh from you~

Well, let's work hard together and to achieve our life goal~!!!!

Love~

fEEling GreAt

well, today is the last day for my semester break, 2mrw onwards, i have to be working hard and hard and hard to get a good result since it is the last semester of my degree studies~

well, the most happy moment was the time i was in KL for a week plus..hanging out v friends and made my day happy and happy~ went for working part time, movie, shopping and alot to go~

kinda miss the day when we were together~ hehehe...the moment when we were together, i can feel it..though sometimes we do abnormal, but we are just in jest~ LOL...

We had great day at Madam Kwan's~ we got laughings and teasing around~ kinda miss that moment~ hope that we wil have it nex time ya~ hehe~

back to kampar and everything is same~ haha...but i think i nid to do a lot exercises to get rid of my little tummy~ hehehehe...jogging will be the way for me to lose weight~ hehe... I do miss everything, miss u, and yes we are!! everything..u muz take care of urself and mz share v me ur tears and laughs~ hehe..love u~

nEw YeaR 2011~

Yeah! It has come to the new year of the century which is fallen in 2011. Retrospect to the past that I had done, feeling myself getting more physically and mentally matured! Great experiences i have gone through~ 2010 was the year for me that filled with tears and cheers... Tears did make me grow, cheers did make me smile~

Well, now, it is 2011, what i hope for that is I can complete my Degree studies where i am supposed to be graduating in May 2011~!! Working life are coming to me as my studying life going to end jz in few months later~ New wishes from me in the year are that I hope that i can be with u for a longer time though we r facing for the distant love prob, but we can make it with a word "TRUST"... Next, i hope i can get a better achievement in my hosting fields. I promise myself i have to be dare for it in any function, take it as the fresh experience and once i have got it, sure I can have a better experience in the later time~

So folks, happy new year and have a great year ahead!!!!

Make your life meaningful and be cheers all the time!!!

幸福吗？~

感情就是很矛盾的~ 永远捉摸不住它的定处。。。它能让你感受它的生命力，仿佛好像一股力量让你继续、执著、珍惜彼此间的一切~

感情不是让人开心吗？为什么有些人却活在痛苦之中？爱的那么辛苦，好值得吗？所以说，感情世界里是没有什么叫对，什么叫错！！

爱，仿佛就是生命中的一股无形的推动力，它的力量说是宇宙般的广大~

爱能让人一瞬间觉得幸福

爱能让人一瞬间感觉甜蜜

爱能让人一瞬间失去自我

爱能让人一瞬间自寻了断

所以呢，爱是无形中的杀手但也是生命中的推动力！但是，谁操纵这股力量？？ 那就是彼此间的执著了~感情就是如此，并非你付出多就能得到的多。。。但是彼此间就要有平衡度~因为人心如此啊！！

爱人啊！珍惜彼此的爱，真爱难寻！一旦找到了，就要好好把握！！这不是你的爱，而是属于你和他的爱！珍惜一且，告诉他 “我爱你”~

你要开心，我要快乐，我们要幸福。。。想和你永远在一起，我爱你~

GreAt eXperIenCe....

Well, it was another of my hosting job at DE Garden. I was hosting a roadshow for E Eagle Group, which is a Australia base company and i did learn a lot though it is a bit tired~ Great feedback from the person in-charge and it is a kind of momentum for me to move forward~

special thanks goes to Bright and Sound event orgnizer for giving me this opportunity to explore myself in the way of my hosting journey~ next would like to thank to all of the E Eagle Group professionals for bearing with me during the session and we had fun~ ^^

~E Eagle Group, Australia base company~

~the models~

Lastly, I hope that i will get more part time hosting job and I will do the best ~!!

*good luck to your exam and all the best !!

Pizza Lava 6 LaYers

it was Friday which was a tiring day for me. Went out in the morning to Ipoh DE Garden and hosted roadshow, from E Eagle Group (Australia). doing announcement all the time to create awareness~

well, after the function, finally i could go off~ yeah~!!! suddenly thought of Pizza~ yummy~ went to pizza outlet with my "cher" and the pizza was so yummy~!!! I m extreme cheese lover and the Pizza Lava 6 layers is damn nice!! LOVE IT~!!

I made it 7 layers~with the cheese powder on top~

We were enjoying the dinner as both of us are cheese lover~ LOL...

good luck to your everything and always be happy in ur life ^^