思。念

虽然说见面时间很少，但我们都很珍惜每一分、每一秒~

看见你的笑容，顿时溶化了我的心头。。。

你说的每一字、每一句，都深深烙在我脑海中。。。

好想念在一起的时光及点滴~

真想时间停顿永远，那我们在一起的时间也多了一些~

你离开我的那一刻，我眼泪顿时留下~它告诉了我，我开始思。念一个人了~

思。念的情绪就扰乱了我的思绪~

每当功课上遇到不如意的时候，多想你能陪伴着我，一起熬过去~

虽然我们距离遥远，但我们的心是相连彼此，让彼此能感受那份浓厚的爱~

虽然很多时候在处事方式上有各自意见，但我们不会因为因此而生气对方~

虽然很多时候你都会不断对我唠唠叨叨，但我都知道那是你的关怀及爱护~

虽然很多时候你都表现非常欢乐及开心，但我都知道其实你心是那么累的~

你的掩护、你的付出、你的爱戴、你的疲累，虽然你从不告诉我，但你眼神都告诉了我。。。

这两天的相处，让我们之间的感情增长了不少，让我们更了解对方了。。。

今天、明天、后天、及将来的每一天，我都会惦记着我们之间的美好回忆、美好时光。。。

因为我想告诉你，这都是我对你的 思。念 。。。

礼物

07/03/2011 的这一天，上天的安排，让我在人生中重生~

在那天，我的盼望及期待，终于。。。我等到了~

虽然说曾经的伤口还在隐隐作痛，但，我知道，这将会是我的良药。解药~

我每天都告诉我，你绝对是生存于现实中，你是清醒的~一切都是如你所愿了。。。。

08/03/2011的这一天，我终于看到了这大礼物~虽然摸不到，但我看到了，它就是我的一切了~

我每天都向上天道谢，送上这一份那么棒的礼物~

每当看见你，那喜悦感，兴奋感都踊跃出来~

再多的疲惫，再多的顾虑，再多的辛苦，都一一告诉我，我的等待是值得的~

直到。。。。。。

19/03/2011的这一天，终于，我有机会触摸了我人生中的礼物！一脸面带笑容，一脸迷蒙蒙的眼睛，一脸活泼的气息，我深深被你吸住了~

你的一举一动、一脚一步，仿佛告诉我你不会离开我，时时刻刻的贴着我的步伐，一步一步地向前走。。。直到永远~

第一次的感触，深深打动我心里~看见你那幸福满满的脸蛋，顿时让我落下了感动之泪。。。我。。我。。。的等待终于让我看到了，我。。。我。。。的盼望不再是一个未知数~

抱着你的感觉，亲吻你的感觉，一切都记牢在我心中，牢牢地记住了~

跟你一起，我想因该值得庆幸~这是上天给我最好的礼物~

虽然，过去的伤痛就似一把刀涌进我心里，告诉我现时的残酷；但，你就有如在世活陀，把刀拔出，用你的关怀及爱护，细心的、慢慢的把我伤口治好~

记得我看着你的背影偷偷说感激，记得你总是为了小小事情而不停唠叨。。。。这。。这。。都告诉我你对我的关怀、照顾~

我只想告诉你，若有天你开始模糊了记忆，请别担心，我会在你身旁，紧握你双手，按着电脑，看着我们的照片，一张一张的述说我们的过去，我们的故事~

这将会是我们的礼物~

你准备好了吗？

前方的路途再多困难，再多的曲折，

我们都要牵着对方的手，互相扶持，互相爱护，一起走下去

tHe sPARkles

Ever since you walked into my life, i have been smiling. There hasn't been a day when i have gone to sleep with a frown on my face, and it's all because of you. I appreciate and treasure you for giving me a great unforgettable day and i enjoyed so much. I m glad you came into my life and I have always wanted the love of my life to be understanding, loving, caring, faithful and most of all someone who would accept for who I am. Now,i have found the person I was looking for. Your smile, your action, your everything has melted my heart...my heart told me that you are the one whom I earnestly long for....

Listen to your singing, it touched deep into my heart...my tears dropped because I know those tears were about my happy and happiness that we have been through, how hard we strive for our relationship....as you said, the willpower will never fail both of us and it keeps telling us, there is our future in the frontage...You became my reason, my existence, my dreams and my future just by being yourself and I thank you all with my heart...

I try to put this feeling into words, but fail miserably. I have no other words to describe the way you make me feel but "I more than love you" are the words that to best describe my love, my perseverance to you. As days continue to pass, my love for you continues to mature, growing beyond the realm of my heart. Remember, though we are apart but love has connected us and making us more closer to each other. Slow down the pace, so that, I can trace it and follow you forever~~~~

~Follow the trace and you will find me~

iT's jUst yOu

A buggy life that I have been through for the week, bustling about my heavy projects and assignments. Finally, I can officially announce that I let go everything that happened in the past because I know what should/should not I to treasure or appreciate when the thing is no longer belongs to me. I will not trace back whatever the hurts and tears that I had been through, because I know, I have found you~!!

Cupid has made a such great arrangement for both of us. Initially, we were just having a nodding acquaintance, chitchatting around and sharing our stories to each other. As time goes on, we found out there are some of the similarities between both of us, mutual understanding and consideration, caring and loving, and that, it makes us together. Whenever the time i feel stressed or just in a bad skin, you are the one who keep me up, motivate me and encourage me not to let off.

Every time when the moment i open up my eyes, i expect to see your face, but see nothing except an empty face. I know that there is nothing in this world that can compare to you and it makes me to feel like I am nothing without someone like you. Every time i close my eyes, I see your funny face and the way you laugh. All these pictures make me keen on seeing you and hugging you all the time.

I remember your smile, I remember the sweet words from you, as it flows through me. I remember my heart keeps pounding when we see each other, I remember every single little action from you done to me...I remember everything and it keeps flashing over and over, picture by picture appearing on my mind. I just could not let my mind sit back as those picture will appear momently on my mind.

I love you more than words can say. From the beginning until now, you have never failed in performing your "duty" and I feel secured to be with you. My heart will always belong to you. Even though, there might be lights and storms that we need to pass through all the time, but perseverance has never failed a thing that makes us to stick it out all the time for our precious love~

~The drawing is a bit "cacat", but it is from the bottom of my heart~

Muaks~!!

p/s: someone has been waiting for so long for my updates and now, here you go~ XD

thINgs leFT unSaiD...

Time is moving fast and now it is in the beginning of March~well, this will be a busy month to me as load of assignments and FYP need to be rushed like hell~ woot~!!!

Well, I could not sleep for the night and stayed up late by doing my FYP. Nothing much progress as I was dreaming of you~ I keep my mind thinking of you, your shadow would not be shaded off... I find myself to be working hard as to retrieve what shud I belong but u seem like do not want to talk or even think about it~ i feel so helpless...

I went out to have my very first time breakfast at 4am~ cool man, this was really great coz it's my first time to be having breakfast in such an early morning and enjoyed it very much with 2 friends (Qzen and Faruq)~ well, all we did were chit-chatting and gossiping ppl around us~ it was so interesting and enjoying~ shud we hang out again nex time~ LOL

Reached home at about 6am smtin and watching my hosting event. It really made my day as i was non-stop laughing when watching over and over again~ it was so cool and i shud feel glad on that coz we (with my partner, Lee Lay Chen) did a huge success in the event!!

A friend of mine was telling me that "if I'm becoming a part of your stress and pressure, then u better let it go as i never wanna see u suffer" and, actually, i do agree with that statement. If you love your lover, u shud not be so self-centered as to regulate him or predominate him from doing your favor. Perhaps, i shud let you go and you would feel better after and that...

My life is starting to become so different even if my days seem the same. And I must confess that it's you who has changed my outlook. You have opened my eyes to some amazing new possibilities. I will forever be filled with a new sense of wonder and joy because you have shared yourself with me. All the things that i told you about how i felt and how you make me feel were true. Nothing else mattered to me except hearing the laughter in your voice when you were happy. You made my days easy to get through and my night at peace, looking forward to another day even though distance separates us just being was enough.

Distant love will oweys be the factor that triggers one's relationship to be insecure. Well, trust and belief to one and another will be the main elements as to ensure the relationship is long last~ I shud keep everything back into my mind and back to what my life was as previous time~ I shud do well in my study and u too, bless u everything and all the best~!!!

tHru sToRMs and bACk

The first day we allowed our true feeling to come out about each other, we fell asleep in each other's arm~ I never wanted it to be morning, where we'ld go our separate way. Seriously, i enjoyed the moment very much~ I duno how to describe my feeling but all I know i dun wan them go away....

We both have been hurt in the past but am I ain't be granted a chance as i believe we we could be the one who are faithful to each other..Things are so good even though we are both shy about things, you make me feel so good and now i wear my smile on the inside and outside, because i know u're mine~

Well, i know that when something has happened, perhaps it will have no way back~ but I believe in my heart and soul that we were meant to be with one another. I think about you everyday and night. The love that i hold for you in my soul is greater than an ocean or the sky above.

All i want in my life is you and your love. We have been thru storms and back into the light over and over again, and right now we are back in the storm. Right now, all i want you to know is my love for you will never die and Let's step back into the light....

Please forgive me for all the hurt that i have caused you. I love you and i mean for the words~ Hopefully, when the day comes, i will still have you by my side and you will be the last angel face that i see.

I will be able to hold you in my arms one last time and tell you how much i love you and how much you really mean to me

I love you~

执着。放开

最近在我人生当中，二月份可说是我人生中的高低潮时刻了~很多事情我们都要亲身面对，亲身体验之后才能从当中有所领悟、感受~

曾经有问过我自己，“当一切不再是你的一切时，你会执着吗” 当时的我，是会的~因为我觉得我在人生中，人海茫茫，我们能相遇，从朋友到情人；从情人到爱人；从爱人到夫妇等等的每一个阶段都是因为“缘”。。好不容易在这世界上，几亿万人口能与你相遇，那可是多么可贵啊！所以，我告诉自己，无论怎样，我都要坚持~

就当一段感情进入的冷静期时，难道这就是分手的时候吗？我们一起辛辛苦苦建立起的感情就这样断掉吗？我不明白。。。冷静期难道不是让大家去冷静思考，然后再给对方机会从心来过吗？为什么就会这么轻易放开？？

一开始，我以为我放下了。。。但当我回味一切我们走过的点滴时，你总是出现在我脑海里~我们一起去槟城游玩的那段日子，让我觉得是人生中最开心的~分开的那一天也是我人生中最难过，泪流满面地一刻了~我是多么不舍得你~很多时候，很想通电给你，但你又不接~很多事情我知道，你忍住眼泪、伤悲、伪装的完美，却还是忍不住离开我；但，最后你还是优雅的离开我了~

可能放开对你来说是一种解脱，我也知道你会很忙，可能不想让感情事纠缠着你~我祝福你。。愿你快乐每一天~时间会证明一切。。。记得我爱你。。。